getting back in track

The Lord is really gracious in everything that he does. career, 

needs,attention,desires, aspirations even in relationships. 

it just pushes me 

out of my comfort zone to

just be somewhere else far away, but the

thing is, the father knows when to grab you back again near to him, 

close to his heart.

I had struggles in dealing with this person, 

that seems to be different and deep. 

these past few weeks we've been to ups and downs 

because of our personalities which I really see as a good thing. 

We get to test each other what is it like to really be together, 

how does it feels to miss some

one from a distance and how to just accept 

each others imperfections.

as she said, I changed and became more possessive and demanding, 

which I am really guilty of. we never have a commitments

but we know where were at. we know our standing. 

and as I can see in her eyes, she is enjoying

the current 'us" being not too complicated, less frustrations, 

less arguments, more with that, we are learning to dance into the rain.

if its a form of art, I'm starting to like the art of abstract

"Even when the sky comes falling
Even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I
So put your pretty little hand in mine
Even when we're down to the wire baby
Even when it's do or die
We can do it baby simple and plain"

I feel slighted

I feel slighted today, I would describe what 

I feel like Im in an abandoned city, feeling all

alone, blurred vision, feeling cold and almost

running out of energy.

I once told myself I would follow your footsteps,

but right now I see myself sinking down. I wanted

you out my head, but it always happen,your the air

that I take in. I cant help but to just include you in

my thoughts, though I feel hurting and slighted,

I wanna be somewhere else away from you, 

to just take a break from this feeling.

I don't know what to believe in any more, the thoughts

that we have discussed or the things that I see and feel.

its like im blinded from afar,wherein I wear a black

shirt, inside a cave without the sun reaching in.

I don't know if I should hope or I continue to feel doubt

about you.

it doesn't really feel good to be in it. to be in torubled with

myself,to be fighting against the current. to be like these.

Find you

I'll run away with your foot steps

I'll build a city that dreams for two

And if you lose yourself

I will find you

these lines strike the best from

the song 

 find you - Zedd Ft. Matthew Koma, 
Miriam Bryant

well, this is just a song

that runs into my mind now.

thinking of you.

I cant wait for our

first breakfast 

tomorrow.

Bitter - Sweet

I never thought this would come my way, 

to experience a different type sparkle all through my days. 

This I would say that, its one of the things that we should 

cherish in our life and to add more value to it. 

What I'm trying to talk about here is feeling of knowing 

that someone is seeing you differently from the others, 

which of course harder for people to understand the nature of it. 

The more you disregard the fact the more it starts to 

become a highlight, which means,the more you

 ignore the more snore? no! im just kidding, 

Im talking about the same person I talked about in my last post, 

the who makes the earth's ground shake it feels like

 there's a huge tide coming in.

well, shes a bit honest and radical about her feelings which she 

described as 25% of her being. We had a talk after work and 

made things clear. Im surprised she wrote 

me a 7 paged letter, that includes her disclaimer 

at the very 1st page of it. while Im reading it, 

shes beside me, drinking a fruit shake and wondering what 

could my possible reaction be. at the end of the page . . .

[to be continued]

April fools day

This day was a bit of an awkward day, I was in the 

office where I currently work as a Virtual Assistant. and

 there's this girl whose really passionate about arts

 and crafts. Shes also a VA handling another

 clients account. she caught my attention,

 for shes bitter as a peanut bitter. 

 I don't like to be

 somewhere nearby her. and she keeps on admitting to

herself that shes naturally bitter. 

but then, the longer we hang out, talk and share

interests in life, that idea starts to shift.

the thought of her being bitter. and I start

say this to her, that;

"Its hard to stay in bitterness

when someone 

melted you in his sweetness"
I have one song for this evening: this is it